Recently read Gary’s book, too, and loved the sweep of the narrative. Brian Rothman proposes that we are seeing, through the use of the Internet, a Para-Self emerge. A kind of Self that can set up shop in several networks, and run like a computer, without being a computer. He/she can move through time zones, and continents and multiple perspectives without getting caught up in the schizoid dynamics of the attempt to unify a figment of the imagination of a frightened inner child or the big bad shadow. I think shadow work, the fear of being out of control, or deviant, is accepted, there can be a greater infusion of energy without a need to hold anything together to meet the demands of a conformist social set up. We operate more out of resonance than we do with reason. We are lit from within, we experience lights and darknesses as dazzling aesthetic displays, and don’t get so caught up in traditional right or wrong…
I think of the sub personalities of the therapy world are not really sub, or underneath an ego, or super ego, but are just other parts that may or may not be in synch with the part that thinks it is in control and runs the show. The ego is a good servant but a terrible boss. Sub personalities are alternates which need to be welcomed into the Mandala of the evolving Self. When all parts, those in pre-modern and post-modern conditions, or traumatized or transcendent dimensions can be given a place at the big table and are allowed a microphone we can function at much higher frequencies and resonances… I think of myself as a consortium of intelligences which share the same heart space, sort of like a tuning fork that starts up a hum that others are also alert to. This has been demonstrated to me and I trust these demonstrations more than anything else that I read or see printed in psychology journal by fragmented people who don’t resonate at all with what I am saying. What you don’t resonate with has a lot to with what is possible or actual for a person. I resonate with a lot of differences that many don’t. I accept that completely and can move on without rancor into a new set of opportunities that are aesthetically driven.
Ultimately we are a two way mirror that we can cross over. This is a metaphor and it is not a metaphor it has happened to me actually and I am sure many others have done it as well. We are each of us an infinity that is reflecting an infinity to its self and there are many different kinds of senses that are employed besides the basic five or six of the physical realm. Trying to unify the Self in a frozen hydraulics metaphor as Freud did, with ego, id and super ego arranged in a top down configuration is too simple for us now. A Para Self is an image that is helpful. too. an Other than Central Self who gives orders at the top of a pyramid or follows orders from the bottom but another parallel Self that is on the other side of the mirror that knows you and loves you better than you know or love yourself. When unappreciated or ignored this Double figure can become threatening and fierce.This double or twin figure is very common among gay men, a Divine Two, as Kripal would say. Self Love becomes as Oscar Wilde noted a life long romance. When this attachment is healthy, open and fluid there is more energy moving through the system, and a more compassionate embrace of differences, whether from a within or without. Such notions as within and without seem inaccurate as we are in tandem with so many forces that operate beyond such simple, basic image schemas. The breaking down of these image schemas are not pleasant, indeed can be very stressful, but once that has occurred and you gone through the mirror, have gone backstage, behind the curtain, and met up with the stars of the show and the carpenters and the stage hands, you begin to let go without going crazy, into the safety and support of this vast ensemble of the living and the dead, and the unborn and unbegot. The ego of course is shattered by this infusion of energy that can feel annihilating. But the ego gets over it.
And there is always metaphor. You are your own metaphor. I don’t think we are going to run out of metaphors for the Self any time soon. These are some of my notes on this vast subject. Whitman was right. " I contain multitudes."