Just finished watching. Wow. So many interesting threads opened. Almost overwhelming, and, yet, patterns rising to the surface. Perhaps, I am prematurely birthing them, but, I want to give it a shot…
@gillesherrada Mentions that he wonders if after reading EPO, if his life will be better, or thrown into chaos. @madrush encourages just to jump in the chaos…the water’s warm.*
I’ve suddenly developed a fear that I might be showing up as showing off, and a suspicion that it might be right…OK. On with it, then: CHAOS!
During the interchange, I wondered if the encouragement to jump arose out of a romantic attachment to Chaos over Order or a recognition, that when enough of the right type of attention, that Order (patterns) inevitably arises.
For me, both the rich, detailed, unique fingerprint of every-moment and the commonalities that bind the details together are Ever-Present. One does not have to deny the other, but can complement each other through an organic packing and unpacking of abstractions witnessed purely. Of course, this is on good days…On other days, I’m like #blargh.
Problems, to me **, tend to only arise when one is advanced at the expense of the other.
In larger part, these considerations are the fruit of resolution of a perceived tension, between two ends of a pole, that has been giving me trouble (read: causing my physical pain, mental anguish, and loss of sleep) for a while: on one end the pole is abstraction (order) and on the other concreteness (chaos).
A pithy phrase I’ve used to encapsulate a healthy way to resolve this tension is:
“Respect differences while recognizing commonalities.”
This also hints at a unhealthy way of dealing with this tension:
“Disrespect differences and/or deny commonality.”
Applied to this case, I desire to embrace the particular light this reading may bring to crannies not yet illuminated, while, at the same time, allowing the shared ground it illuminates to become brighter with the shining of lights from thousand readings arriving from all moments in all conceptions of time.
As to @Jeremy’s question of if there are new structures of consciousness emerging and if there is hope, and to @Donna’s response that yes and that one of their defining characteristic’s may be love.
I say Yes and Yes! And, the characteristic that has brought compassion into my life is time! In particular a deepening awareness of cyclical time spiraling through linear encapsulated by the momentary. Time exist in the imaginal space, and the imaginal space happens in the moment…NOW! NoW! nOw! now. So, all past and future imaginations are experienced presently, and as our imagination develops and encompasses MORE time our compassion expands in inverse correlation to our reactiveness and fear.
My theory is that one of the primary conditions that give rise to this, for lack of better words, historical/integral/holistic/aperspectival consciousness is living just the tendency for post/modern folk to live longer. When we live longer, we literally see and go through more. We actually experience historical events emerge, unfold, and resolve themselves.
Watching multiple crises resolve themselves, not only do they have the potential to become less threatening, we can compare them to other crises and gain perspective about their relative strengths. Then, looking at the direction the strength is moving, and gain even further perspective…bring more time into the imagination.
Then, if we use our longer lives “wisely,” we can delve into multiple histories, examine the data, analyze, organize the understandings, and this can bring even larger swaths of time into our awareness to be flooded by compassion. But, all of this takes time, time, time, time, time, and, as Hofstadter’s law says, “Things will always takes longer than you expect, even when you take into account Hofstadter’s Law.” So, this takes longer life-spans. And, even with long-life spans, no one person can do all this delving, examining, organizing, aggregating, analyzing, experimenting, writing, etc, etc, etc alone. So, it takes a community of long-lived folk, working over generations, supported by adaptive, boot-strapped structures, that, at best, both extend and collapse our time, time, time, time…annnnnd, step back and open, its all here, now. Welcome to time. May it expand within you and fill with love and clarity.
On a personal note, going through these things in my life have reduced my sense of responsibility. When I was first exposed to the reality of the !CURRENT SITUATION OF OUR WORLD IN CRISIS!, I spent a good number of years running around like a chicken with its head cut off and the world on its shoulders to save. I mean, I just saw this, and I didn’t know anything about it before. So, no one else must either, and then I must be obliged share and organize and fix? Right? I also must convince all of my friend that it is their obligation as well and they must help me share, organize, and fix? Right? Well…only, if I want to annoy a lot of my friend and come of like a domineering, righteous, egotistical asshole. LOL. Awww, poor friends…poor me.
What I found out after doing years of intensive research into the causes of our !CRISIS!, it’s potential solutions, and trying to enact these solutions on a grassroots level. Basically, dedicating my life to it… What I found out was that there were uncountable numbers of other people and organizations, smarter, more caring, more organized, more funded, more adaptive, more agile, and more motivated than myself, that are were also aware of the ‘crisis’ and working around the clock to addresses it.
Along with, what I began calling holistic-historical consciousness, starting to emerge/stabilize in me, this experience brought me to a realization. I am not needed. Humanity’s got this, in spades. #Hope #Relief The chicken can put his head back on and the world down.
Now, I can focus on what really matters to me: masturbatory art!
I may get back into the business of saving the world some day, but it will come from a different orientation and not because I feel responsible. It will come from a feeling of it being time. It will be more humble in its approach. Instead of doing it all myself, Ill want to plug into organizations that have a proven track record of doing good, effective work, in which I can contribute my unique skills and passions to the larger whole.
Best to all. If you made it this far, thanks for your attention. Sorry for the typos…I’m not editing right now.
Did you see the patterns, or do I need to subtract more to abstract more.
*BTW. I’m taking poetic liberties in my paraphrasing. It’s likely that I’ve misunderstood meaning. If anyone feels the desire to defend or clarify, feel free. However, there may be no need…I am aware that all of this is first filtered through my perceptual lenses, then, my memory, and, finally, through a semi-conscious decision making process determining which memories to communicate, how to arrange, and what meaning to overlay. I own all resultant distortions.
**OK, I’m gonna stop saying things like ‘to me’ and ‘for me’ here. Can we assume from here on out, all thoughts, feelings, enactments, bulshit, etc, etc, etc, is my own.)