I agree and there are no manuals teaching us how to do this. As Crabtree mentions we are too vast to put into an algorithm, our wants and desires are too complex to put even into words. We are also beyond thought and must rely on gut feels, heart feels as much as head generated cognition. We are under siege, and I have been attacked innumerable times, by the US government, through sodomy laws, by the Church, and by Science, through the medical model, which reduces mind to matter that they then try to legislate remedies with. There is a surge of antagonisms on the Astral which is the space in which these battles are staged. Beyond the Astral all is well but we humans are caught in the middle of the struggle.
This is not for the timid. And it is where the old magic and the new magic will have to be forged in the crucible of the human/non human communique, the liminal zones, where dead matter ( an intelligent thought- virus) seeks it’s living host. I describe briefly, in my own way, such an encounter, which happened last night.
I practiced various kinds of meditation practices during the middle of the night and felt the hybrid state ( both material and trans-material) and had repaired all damage to the energy system and was in the flow state. I felt the left side of the energy body was balanced, this feels like behind the heart a current flows through the heart and out of the left nipple and joins the other currents through out the subtle bodies, much like a nursing mother. Since I am a biological male, I can only describe the experience as a cross gendered analogy. I am sure this is a feeling that all humans and perhaps all mammals, both male and female, gay or other than gay, can generate.
It literally took decades for this recent heart -mind interplay capacity to manifest and I had lots of help from my inner crew, and especially from the light Being(s) who love me more than anyone on earth ever has and in whom I place my absolute trust. But sometimes you are on your own. A journey of the Alone to the Alone, and we draw upon many mental maps from many traditions, and we have to drop them when they become the intrusion! We enter into self similar polarities, which we attract, as I illustrate in this episode from my direct encounter with the dark side.
Feeling the current from the heart mind flowing, I feel the buzzing in the inner ears and wait until I get a signal to take off. The third eye displays intricate pixelated whirls and shapes and forms and I am given permission to take off. I disengage the physical and am “in” the hybrid body and move through many scenarios that I could but dont have to engage. I wait for the threshold to be reached, the most potent desire structure to activate and I ask a question," What happened to Charles?" ( this refers to a person of my acquaintance on earth, who was killed decades ago, in an accident, which I psychically predicted- a major trauma!)
What appears is a masculine black form, formidable and ruthless. I know him well as a Trickster figure, and he is dazzling me, with malevolent signs, and as he unlocks my energy system I shout, " Get thee gone!" and register resistance, but before I can go into a hostile counter attack, I regain my map of a Transcendent God, and try to turn the violence into brother hood. I stop struggling and tell him," Wake up. You are a son of God." This seems to do the trick, the struggle stops and neither of us seeks domination.
I see a lifeless looking heap of greenish metals, looking like a dismembered robot. I touch the metal and it moves to my touch and I try to re-fashion it into a beautiful human form. This doesn’t happen. I intend this to occur but it remains a project that has not become part of the agenda of the brotherhood I belong to. It is my own private matter and i lose interest and drift in voids until I return to the physical feeling refreshed.
I wake up and have coffee and look out the window of my apartment onto Manhattan in motion, driven to distraction by unjust laws made by unjust lawmakers, creating a new slave state from their ivory towers down on Wall Street. But there is trouble in their man made, hi tech world. And I remember that I wrestled last night with one of their demonic sub humans.
We could discuss this further, Ed, tomorrow, or perhaps next week, as I have yet to study the white paper. I have a funny feeling though that unless we are willing to work multi dimensionally we will not get the momentum to liberate the subtle realms, from which, I believe, our current crises arises from. There are many thought viruses structured into humans and they have incarnated now and are attracted to getting into business attire and working on Wall Street.