J. F., at the risk of sounding over the top, I report a dream I had New Year’s Day, before I heard your podcast with Stuart Davis.
Dreamed about numbers. I look at a chart with squares and triangles in combinations. I think simple arithmetic. 1+1=2. I then write the number 2 in the square. I multiply 2 x 2 . And write 4 in another square. I am in a large community of people working with numbers. It feels like a gigantic stock exchange. I notice a bit of scrap paper that float down from an upper floor. A young black man picks up the scrap paper and calls out a series of numbers. The last digit he calls out is 3. I recognize this as pattern, and that we are embedded in a vast network of computational systems. I am engaged to help coordinate these systems. I am discussing a project with another man and intensely aware of our internal process as we communicate, it is sort of telepathic. But I no longer can remember the entire number except the last digit is 3.
I report this dream because of your interview with Stuart and the obvious serendity. As I dont like math, I find it exceedingly odd, that I get so many dreams that generate formulas I cant understand in my waking life.
At any rate, after listening to your podcast, I felt relieved of a terrible burden, that I have been carrying around for years. The great depression that paranormal events can arouse, which each of you are familiar with, is probably produced by the cultural taboos surrounding such events, inhibiting our responses. Not being able to share with a community of the competent creates a sense of havoc in sensitive nervous systems. A lack of expression can freeze these potential insights and they become morbid symptoms. I wonder if we can start to speak out, find the patterns that connect? I sense that we are each of us engaged in this vast social dreaming project.
Your podcasts are becoming a community service. I am encouraged that you guys are taking us to a new level. My only gripe is that you took the conversation with Stuart behind closed doors, to protect your privacy. I hope you kept recording what was conveyed in private and will follow up in future podcasts. I hope we can vibrate with these scattered reports and start to turn them into something that has a size and a shape we can work with. How do we extract something that is at human scale? I agree that attempting to convey through art is probably the best we can do.This morning, I am feeling the healing.
I am looking forward to Timaeus. I’m also studying Plato. I recall the great Atlantis. It is, of course, highly ironic, that in my current life I live in Manhattan, very close to Wall Street, in the belly of the beast, feeling that we are soon going to be floating under water.