Elaine Pagels has a new book out about her experience re: her son’s and then her husband’s death. It is excellent and very very moving. I related strongly partly because I lost my partner and her experience was, of all the memoir’s on losing a spouse, the one most similar to my own. The night before my partner died, I dreamed that his room was entirely empty, no furniture, bare walls, echoing… I did then and do now feel it was a dream preparing me for the incredible shock of his death. Likewise with Heinz Pagels’ dream. And so many many variations on those times when invisible worlds/realities do seem to enter into “ordinary” lives and gives us gifts.