A Case Study in Vision Logic.
Big question. How to revise the epistemology of Vision Logic?
Outline for a Strategy
Truth is not relative ( unless you are a post modern)
Some accounts of Truth are better than others.
How to figure out the best practice?
Develop the best models that align with the best epistemological theory.
What do I know from here?
Tonglen is Tibetan for ‘giving and taking’ (or sending and receiving), and refers to a meditation practice found in Tibetan Buddhism. In the practice, one visualizes taking onto oneself the suffering of others on the in-breath, and on the out-breath giving happiness and success to all sentient beings. As such it is a training in altruism.
9/21 The Experiment
I have felt ill the last few days, an ache in the body, a queasy stomach and a malaise brought on by personal distress and observing from afar the devastation visited upon Puerto Rico and Mexico. As a low level synesthete, I frequently feel no boundary. I somatize the suffering of others, like a cosmic sponge.
I awake in the middle of the night and feel that all the symptoms are gone. Resting on my back, feet propped up on pillows, slightly higher than my head I practice Yoga Nidra and when deeply relaxed I do Tonglen with all of my sorrows, I do Tonglen with all of humanity’s sorrows, Puerto Rico, Mexico City, the Gulf Coast, I feel the energy is balanced as I take in the suffering on the in breath and breathe out the equanimity on the out breath. I stop practice and feel a floating sensation, very pleasant I float off gently into another region, the higher astral, or the dreamtime, an extra-physical dimension, the subtle realm. I re-center into the secret body.
I end up in a bright city street, on a bus, like the ones they have in the UK, open on top floor, and I recall what I have been studying in paraconsistent logic and I look out the window and view a collection of squares and circles and rhomboids and dodecahedrons.
I say.” I want to explore the Existential Graphs of Charles Sanders Peirce.”
What follows is impossible to describe really as I become a series of connectives, and, or, if p then q, if and only if and I am acting out each of them and there are more connectives, many more than those in classic or modern logic and I become a process of experiencing kinesthetically the consortium of affective intelligences that connect language, mathematics and logic, as I become a liquid diamond like flow that enters into grids, graphs and containers within containers, hypercubes and much much more than my human mind can take.
I have amnesia, a profound not knowing, and then I find myself walking down a country road, autumn leaves, and it is a gorgeous view and on the road there are others but not necessarily in a human form, and I start to sing,” I’m alive!” And I raise my dreaming body off the ground and seek to soar upwards into the blue sky but I pause in mid air and I feel the pull of the sorrows of the earth and I sing,” I am also dead!” And I flow into the depths of the dreaming earth, and in the darkness of death I sing.” I am alive and dead and I can remember sky,” And I fly upwards. And the song is acapella with a simple melody, on an off beat, and I sing with a bright tone, as I float in a bluish light, among intricate lattice shapes, and I sing in a devotional mood, ” How do I let them know how much I love them?”
I am a borderlander, holding the grief of earth/death/sky/ecstasy in a simultaneity and there is a sense of the Others in danger and in ignorance of their own nature and as I return to the familiar confines of earth mind, the boy who grew up in Texas and the older man, who currently lives in Manhattan, are awake in the same physical form, in the field of all possibilities. I stay in bed for a long time, basking in the after glow of my memory of my impossible dreamtime, teasing out the implications, accepting the contradictions, the mixed messages from different levels. How to sort all of this out?
Conclusion. I am looking for better words for different kinds of experiences. But I cant always find a new words so I recombine words and ACCEPT MY CONTRADICTIONS. I conclude the experiment is inconclusive.
And what kind of 'I" is that ‘I’ that makes that inconclusive conclusion?
It is an ‘I’ with access to a vast memory system.
“People who build castles in the air do not, for the most part accomplish much, it is true, but every man who does accomplish great things is given to building elaborate castles in the air…”-Charles S. Peirce